Per my sister's request, I'll be posting weekly pregnancy updates going forward on the blog, but wanted to post my thoughts on the first trimester in a single post. Thank you for reading!!
Finding Out: I woke up on the morning of June 5th and took a test. After waiting patiently for 5 minutes, there was still only one line. Disappointed, I told Brian that the test was negative and got back into bed. When my alarm clock went off 15 minutes later, I woke up and decided to take one more look at the test before throwing it out. This time, I saw the faintest of second lines. In disbelief, I yelled for Brian to come look, and asked him to confirm that there was in fact a second line. He said yes, and we both just smiled at each other and gave each other a big hug. We had been waiting a long time for that second line!
How I have felt:
4 Weeks: Excited, but still nervous. In February we had a very early miscarriage (called a bio-chemical pregnancy), so while I was hoping for the best I also knew that it was very early and that something could go wrong. But overall, we were both just feeling so incredibly happy and lucky and I had a good feeling. At this point, my only symptom was a sore chest.
5 Weeks: Still extremely excited, but also feeling tired and a little overwhelmed. Symptoms this week included a sore chest and a ridiculously runny nose (which initially made me think that I was getting sick.) At the end of this week we had our very first ultrasound, and we were able to see the gestational sac and confirm the pregnancy. It was such an exciting day for us!
6 Weeks: I still have a runny nose, and now I'm wondering when I can expect morning sickness to start. I haven't had too many symptoms and still have a decent amount of energy (I'm getting worried that I feel too good). At the end of the week, we have another appointment with our doctor and are actually able to see a heartbeat! Our little one's heart is beating at 108bpm and although we can't hear it, we can see it on the ultrasound. It looks like a tiny pac-man, flashing on the screen. Neither of us had expected to see a heartbeat so early, so we're overjoyed going into the next week and it's starting to feel more real. We also learn that our due date is on Valentine's Day (how cool is that!!!).
7 Weeks: We went into the doctor's this week excited to hear the heartbeat for the first time. At first, everything looked great---the embryo had grown substantially to 8mm, and this time we could both see and hear the heartbeat. But unfortunately the heartrate this week was only 107 bpm, and our doctor was hoping to see an increase from the previous week. Our doctor prepared us for the worst, and explained to us that there was a 50-60% chance that the pregnancy would continue normally, and that she wanted to see a heartrate of at least 120 bpm the following week. We were both very scared. The next 6 days went by agonizingly slowly, and included a lot of worrying, anxiety and tears. It was one of the worst weeks of my life. To make matters worse, all of my symptoms seemed to have disappeared which made me even more concerned.
8 Weeks: The night before our next doctor's appointment, we both tossed and turned, barely sleeping. We were leaving for a week's long vacation with Brian's family in the Adirondacks later that afternoon and weren't sure what to expect. As we were waiting for the doctor to come in to our room, we were mostly silent, just looking at each other and hoping for the best. The first words that I remember hearing from our doctor was "I see a heartbeat." That in and of itself was a massive relief. Her next words were "It looks like it has sped up quite a bit". At that moment, I let out a huge breath and smiled. Our baby's heartrate has sped up to 160bpm and the baby had grown substantially since our last appointment. I don't think that I have ever been so nervous, and knowing that our baby was healthy and doing okay was some of the best news that I have ever received. Needless to say, we had a great vacation up in the Adirondacks and I spent the week hiking and playing tennis and enjoying time with family. I had two days where I felt very, very mildly queasy for a few hours but other than that I've been lucky enough to have avoided morning sickness (which surprised me).
9 Weeks: We just got back from vacation and Brian has been reading the new book that he ordered, The Expectant Father (I ordered What to Expect When You're Expecting). I still have no morning sickness to speak of, apart from occasionally feeling a little "off" when I wake up in the morning. Brian keeps telling me that I have definitely been more emotional and tired since becoming pregnant, but I think that he might be exaggerating slightly:) In terms of physical changes, my clothes were feeling a bit tighter last week, but there aren't any major differences as far as I can tell.
10 Weeks: This week we had our last ultrasound with our current doctor. The difference between 8 weeks and 10 weeks was quite significant. We were able to hear our baby's heart beating at 180bpm and even saw him/her kicking and moving. Many people say that hearing their baby's heart beating for the first time on an ultrasound is very emotional, but for me, it was seeing him/her kick and move for the first time. Symptoms wise, I continue to feel pretty good. Apart from waking up once a night to go to the bathroom, I'm sleeping relatively well and still haven't experienced any morning sickness or food aversions. I will say that over the last few weeks I have had random cravings for burgers, home fries (or more specifically a McDonald's hashbrown patty), and bagels. But I haven't given in to any of those cravings yet!
11 Weeks: Our baby went to the beach for the first time! On Saturday we took the train to Spring Lake, New Jersey to spend the afternoon lying on the beach and swimming in the ocean. I promptly fell asleep and napped for about 1 hour on the beach (maybe I have been more tired?!). The napping trend continued over the weekend when I dozed off on Sunday for over an hour between 1-2pm.